1 Year and 93 Days

This is to hard, I can't do it are the words I told myself after trying over and over again to control my drinking. Each day I would make a plan of controlled drinking and each day I would fail and end up in a black out. Each morning was the same as the one before. My head splitting in pain, dry heaves and wondering who I hurt last night. Each day started in a fog with a loss of memory of the night before. What did I say, what did I do. Then it became How can I face today? Where did I hide that bottle? By 9am I was drinking again. By noon I was off to get more...

My impossible became possible with God and AA. I surrendered and came to realize I was powerless over my addiction and my life had indeed become unmanageable. I did 90 meetings in 90 days, read the Big Book, got a sponsor and worked the 12 steps of recovery. I do service work for my church and AA and I sponsor a couple of my own girls. Time really does fly when your having fun! Sober fun at that! It just gets better and better everyday. I am so blessed now. I can't imagine my life any other way now. If you struggle with drinking come for some coffee, and stay for a meeting. You might be glad you did, I was.

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My Life today is a gift, I never thought it could be as wonderful as it is again. I am thankful and blessed at the same time. Sobriety is a journey I am fortunate enough to afford.

I have had a productive day, I mowed and finished planting the corn in the garden then I mulched it with pine straw. It's looking pretty darn good if I do say so myself. This has turned into quite a job. I am so thankful to my husband for all the hard work he has put into this for me. He has really turned my dream into a reality. Our little homestead is coming together through his hard work. I couldn't be happier. We have been here for almost a year and in that time he has built a chicken coop, tilled the garden and fenced almost all of our property and cross fenced it for the goats. Much has been done and there is still much to do. I have supper in the oven and a couple more things to do so I better get going. I hope you had a great day!

With Love.

Carla Jean